BONUS: Compelled by Hindsight - 2020 Demo

All your smiles and painted laughter have finally stuck to form

Your wretched pleas to move on past her, have left your heart well-worn

And though it beats for her no longer, the pulse keeps keeping on

The muscle tries to grow back stronger, but growth can't last for long

The pain and regret, and lonely, anguish, and all that had left you disheartened

You thought that these feelings had finally been vanquished

But they merely changed their target

When did you decide those feelings had finally run their course?

Was what you felt a sense of healing, or was there a dark horse?

Perhaps the marionette's just abject and what you seeks not friends

But just a puppet, just an object, sadistic means to ends

The one that you've chosen to be your victim

Is stuck in a state of pretending

So what makes you think that the countless previous schisms

Is a pattern that you could be ending?

The rope's not voluntary, or one that you can show

A noose that's tied so scarcely, merely acts to keep you on your toes

Everything you do is toxic, disguised by tinted dye

Whether or not you're deemed quixotic, depends on how you lie

Pretend and fake, perfect the fiction, practice all your lines

Present your sins and derelictions, concealing all the signs

Your rationalization is flawed at best

And your subject in heart is despondent

The quips you've pronounced that pretend to be in jest just

Serve to hide the true absence of content

The rope's not voluntary, or one that you can show

A noose that's tied so scarcely, merely acts to keep you on your toes

The time to clear your mind, so don't submit, and don't deny

You've missed your chance a thousand times

So just this once, don't pass it by

The yarn you spin's turned awfully thin

So drop the string, absolve your pastime

Fuck the past, we're living in the meantime

The decent thrive, the guilty hide

So steel your nerve, and choose your side

You might be wrong, you might be right

But how'll you know if you don't try?

The sleepless nights your fear incites aren't half

As bad as what the hush might bring

Can you take another dose of those feelings?