Nu11

Lacerating reason

Defy logic

Disguise the answers I am seeking

Underneath my skin

It boils up inside

No empathy

Just fucking null

Murmurs seep through the sullen air

Inducing paranoia enraged by my own despair

I try to escape the hate

This engulfing malignance submerging me within my fate

These inexcusable manifestations of shame

Solidifying an identity falsely portrayed

Exposed

Falling short of expectations

Why am I always the last to fucking know

This clenched fist snuffs all rationality

Sowing the seeds of my relentlеss reality

Forever taunting and tainting this duality

Mirrors painting portraits of chirality

Thе monster I tried to hide clear for all to see

Despondency tortures me

Despondency tortures me

Endlessly carving its face corrupting me null

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Carve in my name, belong to me

Bury the rest to rid me of sin

I am laid to rest

Decimate the fallen ones

Bound to death as I suffer the consequence

I know you're there

Gutting me with punishment

I feel your hand

Guiding me to pestilence

What am I supposed to be

Because it can't be the man I've become

Trapped by twisted memories

Of a child who tried to overcome

Every day another sentence I face

A myriad of judgements to erase

As my will slowly decays

Will I ever

Fix what's broken